After All We've Been Through,I Guess We're Cool

2007-08-03T22:34:00.000-07:00

i miss the soldier ):

2007-08-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

it's really hard to hang on to what we've been holding on all along and finally come to realize it's actually NOTHING AT ALL.
slowly but surely

we're definately coming back stronger

2007-06-12T01:04:00.000-07:00

2007-04-06T07:56:00.000-07:00

whoa kite flying today was helluva fun well maybe it's because daddy made it fun.
heh now i know how to fly a steady high one you wanna try? lol.
of cz priority goes to my homies.
soon okay. i wanna go cycle and aunty hunting also. :)

cant wait for tmrw's breakfast!

2007-03-13T19:07:00.000-07:00

havent' been doing 3D2N camp since laselle pri sch
& lil' did i expected that this time round i'd be so attached to my class.

see they made me lose my voice on the very first day, they didnt wanna cooperate with me during campfire, made me shout like a mad woman for their attention and squeeze my brain to find ways to lengthen their attention span spent on me.
but after all these shit i went through for the past 3days, i was really sad while doing the debriefing.
ironic shites aint it. LUCKILY my great partner cum excellent leader was there whenever i needed help. THANKS BUDDY. :D

anyhow, my sorethroat is really bad.
addition of flu and cough just made it worse.
now i've endless of medicine to take.
bye i hate it

2007-01-18T21:47:00.000-08:00

fucked up CheeByeKia will never fail to put up a 'grab-my-balls' desperate face, saying "desperate housewifes how come i'll NEVER get enough of you?"

not even worth mentioning cz YOU WILL FUCKING HAVE A TASTE OF THE YUNXIFIED ATTITUDE FUCKER!

2006-12-17T07:22:00.000-08:00

i hope ALL the TPDB-ers enjoy every moment of their race at penang. come back in one piece with that bling bling (medal) thing of course. :D

2006-10-13T17:43:00.000-07:00

kinda screwed up today's program.fuckin cock up the nitro crossing & mohawk walk part which was damn bad cz it went to the extend that they took off their shoe while doing nitro crossing & i actually didnt stop them.
very distracted nowadays i dont even know what i was doing.
the latter was because i didnt control them well enough & they were running about EVERYWHERE.
these are the worst thing that can happen during group activities can.

went into emo mode for awhile and decided that the nxt one MUST not be like that.
so the second phase was slightly better but it's still not up to our standard la. quite sad.

but on a lighter note, i saw my SUPER eyecandy today.
still looking as good as before. :)

2006-08-03T23:42:00.000-07:00

the birthday celebration was seriously GREAT.
honestly i've never receive so many surprises.

thanks to: nurul, siyda, samantha, zhiqing, sharon, chingwan, mengyeow, shanna, huibin, jiashi, nazeer, miss lim, weiyi, juvia, tine, zilin, hweejun, weini, yingying, zhixiu, meihui, baoyi, jingshen, becca, chef zhen hui & blaze touch.
SPECIAL THANKS to:
tkk
maddie
yeexuan
jaslyn
eunice
poon
linjie

they surprised me in every way and thats all i can say.
((: thanks

2006-07-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

CRAZY MOMENTS! :P

Introducing: the 3 farmers!!

Farmer James lost in her own world...

Farmer Richard still happy aft. ploughin the fields...

Farmer THOMAS aft. a hard day's work!!

Which is bigger? the coconut, the bottle or mango!

2006-06-24T01:56:00.000-07:00

just reached home

good i'm happy now. :)

Im telling ya loosen up my buttons babe (uh huh)
But you keep frontin babe (uh)
Say what you gon' do to me (uh huh)
But i see nothin' (uh)

lets hope i survive common test because this will totally be base on my level of intelligence since i didnt even study nor listen in class.

I may appear as if I don't give a damm when i really do.

2006-06-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

holidays are here finally but that doesn't mean it's breaktime.
y'know i've common test to study for, 3 projects to be done and the worse of all, training as usual. ):

js was damn right. i have a blister the other day.. cz i was late for school and i didnt wear my socks properly so apparently i got one.
. . . . . .
but the MAIN problem is i didnt tell anyone her spell y'know.. unless her spell is "cheekalapipoh huat ah! " because yx and i kept saying that in school. aiyah so wasted maybe she should conduct class for 'PUNG SHUI POGA'. hahah

OMG!!
shane is DaMn h0T. Carman is also.
& it's good to see 2 goodlooking couple making out isnt it?

say yes.

okay well done. ((:

2006-06-01T02:42:00.000-07:00

okay, i'm evil today. i e-mailed u, msg u & now bloggin back.
I MISS YOU ): as much as i want to bump into you, i didn't.
there are nights i wish i could tell u stuffs like how i used to.
it'll be nice if we could recriprocate everything but i guess not.
let's "bump" into each other one day.
let's say sunday? 7p.m? tbp macs? hahaha..
missed call me with the no. i msg u today. REMEMBER, WE DID NOT MEET, WE BUMPED INTO EACH OTHER.
stop livin' a lie
okay, the whole intention of this entry is to tell u, i miss you more. i still want to scream at u, mumble things & make u walk me home! -sighs. tell me when kays?

2006-05-25T16:24:00.000-07:00

my gawd.
trekking tmrw night, bbq on sat and camp on sun(i think) despite the piling work on my table. doubt i can wake up on time to attend mon's class.
72hrs a day will help shite man.

project discussion tmrw during break and i havent come up wih anything.
sensing a fall apart*

training ytd was ok
quite fun
eyecandy wasnt that sugarish afterall hahah!

just realised i've so many dates during STUDY BREAK, dont even know if i can clear all.

i need a nap now.

p/s: _____ frenched me. (in sch)

DEEP SHITE~ hahah!

2006-05-23T20:34:00.000-07:00

If you wanna know how much I love and care for you, count the waves.

2006-05-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

2006-05-17T22:48:00.000-07:00

i went to school with moodswing, and i swung at almost every of my classmate.
thats bad i know.

training just now, all my nitty gritty basics sucked, like changing of direction and outer legs, i cant do the small stuff well, haha have no idea why.

but anw, nazeer came school to lunch with me and we ended up talking endlessly.
y'know i think he's kinda sick.. i shant elaborate more i'll tell if you wanna know.

kay bye i'm tired now.

2006-05-11T14:50:00.000-07:00

hihi
yay-ness we're gonna have LONG weekends :)
haha
okay anw, ytd juvia came to my school all the waY FROM HER SCHOOL (NP leiZz) to return me the hug she owe me the other day.
and she sent me home in the later part :))
so sweet right. i like. :D
haha

hmm.. i think it's been 1week since i've seen yr cz she never come find me ley weird.
i think i'll go find her on tue. haha

Boy, I'm digging on your energy
And I'm digging what you telling me
So I wrote this little melody
And dedicate it to my favorite lover

actually i've NOTHING to blog about.
school life is so NO LIFE lar
& i know thats very sad.

alright i'm going to bathe and back to school!
FBODZ rocks (i think)

2006-05-06T00:19:00.000-07:00

~~i miss the days whereby we get to meet at the interchange. :(~~
and my maid is going away tmrw lah. :((

- so moodswing.

2006-05-05T23:07:00.000-07:00

i still think juvia is cutE =D

2006-05-02T19:13:00.000-07:00

i'm in dilema if i should go training tmrw y'know.
down with flu, and they say training'll still be on if it rains.
.....

okay so anw, school ended like one and a half hour earlier today. :)
and now i'm rotting at home.

nth really happening in sch 'cept the fact that there's alot of breaking up going on.
right.. it's not happening but i just find it ironic in a way that they just happened to fall on the same day.

on a lighter note,
yr came to my school to look for me cz she misses me hahah! thats how sweet right. X)

this is like 15 times of dejavu. HAHAH. crazy farts u know. :))

2006-05-01T01:49:00.000-07:00

i can't hold you tighter but i'll find a way.
outside it's raining and nothing stays,
nothing ever stays.

when you realised someone had completely walked out of your life without a word,

-

it's just funny how someone can change so much.
often, i will say i feel like a changed person anyhow.
but then i'll stop and realise that i'm still in the trying to change.
there's just a me in me, i cant change the way i act.
even if my thinkings're changed, i still act like myself.
i'm still xiaoyun and i still care for those i used to care for.
no change in that.

i cant just disappear in someone's life.
i guess my method'll never change.
there and then, fade away.but i'm still around.

now and then, i miss those little moments i had in mjr.
every single moment that seemed so-everyday to us will never be there anymore.
no matter how hard we try.

time was all we had until the day we said goodbye.

whatever it is, however everyone'll change.
to everyone i know, i loved, i still love, i cared and always will care for.
i thank you for being part of my life.
to destroy it or to bring laughter to it.
to come and go or to come and stay.
to walk straight out of my life or stay for good.
i thank you.

i'm thinking too much, i know.
that's the result of stoning the whole day.

2006-04-23T19:11:00.000-07:00

pls send in your resume if you're interested to go on a silent date with me.
i really need sucha thing lately.

hah.

2006-04-06T09:39:00.000-07:00

i died missing _____ ..
ayeyaye shite i'm serious this time!
i had love sick for like every 2 seconds.

SHITE .

2006-04-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

shite.
i totally am digging someone now.
TOTALLY y'know.
& it doesn't feel good.

i don't even know why i'm behaving like that.
please lar dance me away. I DIG ______ SO MUCH SHITE LAR!

[ Things out of reach are always purrfect. ]

2006-03-27T01:28:00.000-08:00

wennie, ruie, gf and weiqin are going sun tanning at sentosa on wed!!
omg i'm going too but for a different purpose. -sigh-
okay i'll be at palawan beach pls come and visit me okay?
i'll be delighted i promise. :)

so anw, i'll be staying over at sentosa on fri. with suzhen and juvia..
and i'm kinda DREADING it cz urm.. juvia turns VERY touchy at times, especially at night in the tent. hahah.
she TOTALLY freaked me out the last time.
i'm dead serious about this ok.

and i've been presenting very lousy shits for my work.. i think i'll get fired sooner or later.
DANG! i sooo dont want this to happen.

i'm gonna DO SOMETHIN' about it.
SEE! theres no doubt for me takin' priority in my work okay!
dont say i'm no good. =B

goodnight! nobody.

2006-03-24T05:39:00.000-08:00

i kept askin' myself where'd you go?

i find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'cause your voice always helps me when i feel so alone,
but i feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
and when i pick up i don't have much to say,
so, i want you to know it's a little fucked up,
that i'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
tellin' you that i've had it with you and your career.

and there you are eloping with another.

i want you to know it's a little fucked up,
that i'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
for while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
it seems one thing has been true all along,
i don't really know what you got 'til it's gone.

2006-03-18T05:26:00.000-08:00

I need a hug.

2006-03-18T00:52:00.000-08:00

just back from tkss campfire.
dont understand why i'm so super tired. i've made use of all the time i have to sleep alrdy but still seem so insufficient.
anw, there's briefing again tmrw, at office.
and i'm so dead.. how to cope i also dont know.

hmm..
so many many many of my friends started smoking but i'm kinda confident that i can stand firm from all these.
anyhow, i've realised several bad habit about myself. hope i'll be able to change it.
dont feel like having low EQ y'know.

NEED SLEEP!
goodnight

2006-03-16T22:55:00.000-08:00

recently, i've been having such strange dreams.
weird stuff.

i am secretly missing someone, someone and someone.

i cant breathe easy.

HAH.

yesterday la salle break camp.
and today, crescent girls had dragon boating.

it was fun at least for my team. ((:
but what wasn't fun was i sinked my new baby G watch in the sea.
urgh.. damn sad lei.

k goodnight world.
i really need rest.

what i really meant to say,
is that i'm sorry for the way i am.
i never meant to be so cold.

`empty promises don't count.

2006-03-11T11:58:00.000-08:00

these days, expressing myself turns hollow.

blame it on me being blank 5/8 of the time last year.

blame it on my direction in life.

blame it on my life for being so.. mundane.

anyhow, i've never watched campus superstar & when i plan to check it out, i cant.
... sad hor?

cz i'll be over at karimun till wednesday, and i'm conducting dragon boat on thursday!
HAHAH cant wait. but actually i have EXACTLY NO IDEA how it'll turn out to be, hopefully it'll be fun, and i can come home safe and sound in one piece.

AND.. hopefully there'll be good news for my appeal results.

HUAT AH!

2006-03-01T23:48:00.000-08:00

Went back mjr, & celebrated suzhen's birthday after guides.
Walk hsing chieh to the mrt station to meet her friend.

Huimin, suzhen & I had dinner together.
Walked around, talked a lot bout r/s.
The aftermath effect was real bad.. It killed me.

I like you more than what you know.
Aiya.. Some things are so not to be spelt out.
Maybe I should just quit you. Easier said than done..
But if I get through this, it'd be the world.

2006-02-27T00:54:00.000-08:00

today's a slow day, as in its pace.
and i almost lost my phone.

went aunty house at woodlands for family gathering.
very bored so my bro and i went back to the car, both of us fell asleep like logs with the windows opened, and thats when my phone almost got stole.
but honest speaking, i'm more of concern if that person kissed me. hahah serious.
because i got this very bad feeling i dont know why.

okay urm.. my cousin discreetly got my no. y'know
cz my lil' boy was holding onto my phone, he took it to miss call his.
and the worse thing is he messed up my phone with the radio chanels, and my wallpaper!
URGS!
this is unacceptable aiight.

anw this morning, i got tricked by nazeer.
now he's saying if i'm bored or when i feel like going out, ask him along.
hmm..?
of cz my friends will be the first to cross my mind lar
but well.. CAN TRY considering since you mentioned.
hehs bleahs.

/lets see if i'll bang into huiyan again tmrw. x)

2006-02-21T15:28:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it, tell me i'm dreaming that we are still we
it was amazing, said you were lucky that you found me.

it was on a rainy day that we met you didnt have a place to go.
yeah.. as we'd just met so lets go slow but no you just told me to keep you from the cold
sorry i cant take it, why did you fake it, why did we kiss..

and i'm just down,
you left me with a note without a sound.
i figured out that there's been sucha child.
you never know how much i've been around
how my heart just frowns if you're down.
i'll be your teddy bear i'll be your clown,
i'll take you round & round & if you dont mind i could be your standing ground
even if that means i drown.

and baby that would be my one last vow.

off to office!

2006-02-18T22:50:00.000-08:00

hi.
urm.. today is basically shag as expected and i'm aching cause i did rock climbing at office in the morning. actually going through bellay school. yeah..

hmm.. wifey msged me in the morning to inform that her fever came back & she wouldn't be able to meet.
met linjie and meihui instead..
we cabbed around, got eileen her very belated present and sent it to her house.
ended up watching chucky at her place.
cabbed home after that.

gave linjie this watch i got for her sometime ago..
and i think the cabbie thinks we're having some kinda affair.
hahah

anyhow, i'm tired for real.. i only got to bathe at 1.30am last night y'know..
too many calls to answer to.

what is this man!
they said the word 'decent' sounds weird on me (...)

2006-02-17T11:56:00.000-08:00

right.. today i had an almost purrfect day.
thanks to jinyong & friends. ((:

tmrw will be a tiring day i guess.. because of my popularity, everyone wants to date me. hahah kiddin lar!
i'm meeting wifey and linjie.

briefing in the morning
10am at office. omg..

going bathe alrdy
bYe lar.

2006-02-12T19:48:00.000-08:00

cause everytime we touch, i get this feeling, and everytime we kiss i swear i could fly. ((:

2006-02-11T23:30:00.000-08:00

omg i feel so lousy..
why the sudden heartbreak..

2006-02-11T18:39:00.000-08:00

dont know whats wrong with me.
i keep hearin the phone ring.
i keep hearin my hp ring.
i keep hearin tt ive got a message.
...when i didnt.

woken up by SER YI XIAN this morning. he kept calling & i just didnt answer to his call i dont know why hahah.

& when u've reached the climax, everything starts going downhill.

...... empty.

2006-02-10T19:58:00.000-08:00

i felt rather harassed with those questions the 1B pple asked.
kids nowadays are like.. very ghostly leiz
they'll call and msg you non-stop to ask about weird questions.
anw, huimin is also going thru this. haha!

oh my aunty's back frm canada. but maybe for just 2 weeks?
and the good thing is she came back ALONE cz louis & peggy has school!
that means no noisy cousins. yay!!

((: U MAKE ME SMILE.
but only for awhile.

2006-02-05T00:51:00.000-08:00

hihi.
just reached home.
went to meet teng siang, tkk and linjie at marina.
yea.. dont think i will go street soccer tmrw.
still got alot of things unsettled.

okay nites everyone.
i've decided to be good.

2006-02-04T00:34:00.000-08:00

wake up, felt like crap,
swam like mad,
fucking had to go school for logistic stuffs cz sat's work shifted to today.
finish the twines. 26 poles are missing.
and damn tmrw still got last min meeting.
whoa lao really last min still have to wake up at 7am..

FUck

p/s happy birthday eileen

2006-02-01T19:54:00.000-08:00

actually i'm confused now i dont know if i should continue or stop liking leh
on the edge..
but if things are happening this way, ahh.. whatever lah!
i really dont know
next meeting's on sat.
kinda relieved cos urm.. it's not a school day.
& things wont turn out as bad or at least i wont feel this bad.

- anyhow, i get what you mean.. & i seriously do.

2006-01-31T00:08:00.000-08:00

omg.. i'm sooooo dead now
i havent finish my wet weather plan for sec 1 orientation which i've to submit by tmrw ley..
and next meeting on coming wed..
aye no one can save me leh hahah
anyhow, i'll try to settle it asap.

oh yah..today is my cousin's birthday so

happy birthday tzewan jiejie! :)

2006-01-27T10:46:00.000-08:00

maybe i shouldn't hear smth i heard.
it got me thinking & vexing so much about it.
aiya.. but what done cannot be undone so i guess the rest is up to me to believe

anw, it's been long since fenglin & i talked.
so i'm gald we did ytd.
mostly r/s wise (not very constructive thou)
i'm still happy lar.
but i got really emo after that.. aftermath effect.

now i'm okay so dont worry.

p/s- happy new year zhiwei!

2006-01-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

y'know what? not generalising but i feel that pple named claudia likes to attract attention leiz.
first is CHIJ OLGC's claudia.. then the other one, also attention seeker..
I say no but they keep givin so i keep on takin
hahah! no la kiddin
but it really tires me out & make me wanna go lala~
so i started to play with suzhen on our way back home..
and yeah.. alot of pple see lar. lols
dont elaborate alr la (i shy) haha!

urm.. CHIJ OLGC was okay..
just got to know that 'may adventure centre' is just ard jiashi's house
& uh.. we past there before.
k la thats very random hahah but its okay.
:)

2006-01-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

If u know i'll never leave you,
wld u take it for granted?
If i hung up on u cos i'm angry,
why wld u take forever & a day to call me back?
Cos u don't know the right words to say...

Why do we bother listening to explainations when all u really need is the other party's presence.

okay my life is kinda hectic
went tp open house with suzhen ytd, walked ard, meet my bro, meet her bro, had lunch and went off.
met minsy & becca at kallang mac.
after that, went gym as usual.

becca went off first, then we did shortly after that.
kfc for dinner, and alot of crazy shit.

ahh... i won't see you tonight so i can keep on going insane.
yeah kinda wish my crush was around now.. ):

2006-01-06T22:18:00.000-08:00

I havent decide to go gym or suntec tmrw.

i think i go gym la.

2006-01-06T18:46:00.000-08:00

It's not good Xiaoyun.
[i'm getting annoyed over everything & anything. ]

[ loads of events took place ytd. My mind's blank. I detest yearning to go home just to let it all out... i hate being without you. ] [ things you say is driving me away ]

Nothing else matters anymore...

+ is it me? or are you misleading me...

i msged & i _____. I think & i _____. I talk abt it & i _____. simple.

You will never miss the water till the well runs dry.
URM... i miss you ):

2006-01-05T22:59:00.000-08:00

broken and broke.

2006-01-04T23:40:00.000-08:00

so i went mjr to help them with the structure, banner, shelter and all the shite lah..
got kinda pissed off (told ya i get frustrated easily) and apparently all the AP came out lar..
so shity.
and i was forced to go back again tmrw..
darn early i just felt like ignoring them..
like fucking 6.30am in the morning?
nvm, i'll just play along with them.

and huimin just told me that she broke up with yu jie alr..
whao lao fast leiz. like how long only..1mth+ ?
lets see..
my last one last uhmm ard... 10 days?

k i know mine's worst.

-dont wanna think about you think about me.

2006-01-03T13:11:00.000-08:00

i just came back from precious's sch.
uh..cos i cant take it.
so boring, and the parents are noisier than the kids there.
i dont know if the weather is affecting, but i get frustrated very easily lately.
so i decided to come back first.

it's my wrong for me to keep on playing games like i know you're here to stay.

//coffee wont numb loneliness. it just makes the night longer.

baby, pls check on me tonight.

2005-12-30T23:47:00.000-08:00

almost forgot.
it's casin's birthday today,
so happy birthday to her.

2005-12-30T17:10:00.000-08:00

my dear junior,
i'm not rich so stop asking me to meet you at mrt to pass you money okay. lol.
but it's possible for me to buy a writing desk from you lar provided free delivery.
just no magnetic braclet or 10 layers mattress. HAHAH!

i woke up feeling rather good this morning. there's this very sWeEt aura.. how come lehz!?!
dont know ley. LOL!

anw, i think jiashi has really good senior who's always not- that- updated- but damn helpful.
haha.. very cute ar keep it up.
:)

2005-12-29T23:39:00.000-08:00

i just got a shock in my life.

2005-12-29T21:59:00.000-08:00

/no regrets. i'm at fault anw.

saw sufen at j8 today while siting outside the carpark.
and she was busy with her phone so i surprised her. =)
chatted awhile then chan chieh and ho yun joined us.
after that, ho yun admits that she admires me. lol.
so cheeky ar you.. after so long..

i think i saw jiawen today. but nv call her.
yah..
see you in rumah tinggi next time arh.

and tkk's asking me if he should have kang kong now.
sucha ass right. cant stand him.

byebye.

2005-12-28T17:22:00.000-08:00

i kinda miss honeymoon period..

2005-12-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

just back.
now, i'm rather not used to the weather here.

lol. hihi huibin.
linjie's impt to me, but so are you lar
whoa lao always bricker until i dont know what to say..
i'll explain to you when i meet you lah
soon ar
better make time for me by hook or crook.

//linjie! we must also meet. next week okay.we'll have bitching session.
i'll send you the video clips & photos when i upload it.

tired. i'll reply all your msg tmrw.

2005-12-26T01:51:00.000-08:00

$3000 a day will lead us to poverty.

2005-12-25T00:22:00.000-08:00

i got to admit that disney is fun.
especially the fireworks.very nice.
okay anw, i didnt buy much thou things are kinda cheap.but my bro went on a spree.haha from hk to luo wu. how abt that.lol.
shop 2 storey only spend all our money
and we walked until leg broken arh..still must help carry his goods.
at this rate of spending $3000 odd a day, i think we have to take maggie mee for the next month. pls dont ask me out arh. no money alr. got to wait for awhile more.

okay i go bath alr lah. late plus cold.
okay byebye goodnight.

21.5 degrees indoor( with heater)

2005-12-23T00:16:00.000-08:00

very tired now,
came back frm shopping not long ago.
disney tmrw so i'm going to sleep soon. update again~

2005-12-22T15:15:00.000-08:00

hihi.
i'm cold.

2005-12-19T23:43:00.000-08:00

whoa lao ..
this is so damn irritating lar honey, please fuck off from me okay.
as far as possible.

i dont like you.

2005-12-19T20:10:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna be the one to blame you
Like fun and games
Keep playin' 'em
I'm just sayin-
Think back then
We was like one in the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
It's like that
Now you gotta face the pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain
Like a maze
You can never escape
The rain
Every damn day's the same shade of grey

2005-12-17T17:51:00.000-08:00

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You cant run the race
The pace is too fast you just wont last.

//FM

2005-12-16T23:54:00.000-08:00

baby, it's you. make me go so weak.
got me trip trip trrrippin'.
play the pretence game with me.
i'm a player-hater.
hate people playin' better then me tt is.

if you wanna be a clown,
go join quidam lar.

get lost lar CHEEBYE!

2005-12-15T01:19:00.000-08:00

im screwed.

2005-12-14T00:09:00.000-08:00

happy birthday mr seah.
see you later alligator. : )
muack!

2005-12-13T13:22:00.000-08:00

my fishes are really giving me alot of problems lehz.
escape, sick, then stuck in filter. whoa lao.. everyday also headache la.
nevermind!

anw, happy birthday to zilin ~
best of luck to your A's nxt year.

okay i need to do smth with the filter now.
nites.

2005-12-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

Remember the name- M. shinoda

]] That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more

// feeling like a fool cos i've done u wrong.

2005-12-07T07:16:00.000-08:00

shite.
but your expired honey and sugar is killing me right now..
how...
arghHH!

2005-12-06T22:11:00.000-08:00

actually, you know what?

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
& i cant always be playing playing your fool

so much for my happy ending fall, with you i fall so fast.

bYe

2005-12-06T19:47:00.000-08:00

Dear friend,
Maybe u stopped reading my blog, maybe u don't know that i'm writing this for you. It seems as if you're no longer there. The promise we made seems faded. I feel jaded. i hate saying this but i miss you...

2005-12-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

Mm.. today was a twist of fate : )
i bumped into hui yan and alot of others like uh.. housoon, huishan, blahblah.. but main point is hui yan okay hui yan lEiZz.
i think i'm quite composed lar.
haha. veryVeRy happy~ [ elated lar okay] forsee it'll make my weekend. : ))

2005-12-02T01:10:00.000-08:00

today was kinda tiring. out with linjie accompany her make contacts, buy new phone, walk ard. help her think of ideas for her projects, and more walking ard. really alot of walking ar.

then dinner gossip abt tkk. sucha carrot lah i'm so speechless now. okay fast forward.

walked to orchard for lightings, then went back ps find zr. took mrt, waited for her bus to come.
reach home alrdy still got sensitive pple for me to entertain with. whoa really damn tiring ar i go sleep liao byebye.

2005-11-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

gAwD~*

( : if there's a reason to love, melissa gives me every reason to love her.

2005-11-27T20:52:00.000-08:00

nobody's fault.
anyhow, you still did great as in GREAT lah okay!
looking really good with that whack.
very shuai down there.

anw smth random,
i'm so proud and glad that i've good junior(s).
wont mention name(s) or why but they're speechless good. :)

and uhmm..i dont really like commitments( at least for now) so you guys can stop recommending books like 52 brilliant ideas to re-energise your r/s or how to speak fluent lovely-dovey in 11 languages.
maybe smth more er.. constructive.
haha thnks for those anw!

2005-11-26T16:11:00.000-08:00

db race at s'pore river.
rain but tp still managed to clinch a place
i think my bro very happy. :)))
they better do as well tmrw.
or else life at home will be like gOnG xI~ ~ ~

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

u cool i hot please off your engine thnks.

2005-11-25T14:37:00.000-08:00

i hope tpdb get a place in river regatta tmrw.
jiayou !
go buy banana liao .

2005-11-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

actually im so sleepy now.
camp was fun lar.
weiyi, tina, cheryl,szehui really did great job in organising.
everyone else equally did lar
anw, must congrat the current cl,acl, and pls.

no extra energy to talk.

p/s some of the pics taken during camp

aloy shitting

okay bye. BUY! bye. BUY!

2005-10-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

haha. Nike series: high dunk, low dunk.

whole new series: cow dung.

*Rubbish!~

kai keat's sleep talk that is. :))

2005-10-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

too much complications.

so superficial.

covet.

judgemental.

Play-fight in the dark, then we both make up,
Why you got me so messed up?

all the shit i been thru.

lovers & friends.

2005-10-28T19:34:00.000-07:00

i was so stupid to think that maybe for one second that you cared.

2005-10-18T17:30:00.000-07:00

just took my medicine..
it's raining now.

I love the rain.
I could see people struggling to hold their brollies while others desperately flagging for cabs.
Me? i wished you were still around so we could step on puddles of water & laugh at each other's stupidity. BYE friend. i hope to see you in your PJS walking to my house's provision shop. HAHA.

i think my ancestors hate me and when i die, i'll die a pitiful death.
can go do good deeds to obtain some good karma alr lar

omg. shut up! i dont know what am i talking.. shall tk a nap

2005-10-18T15:57:00.000-07:00

it's an irony why i love playing mind games with myself.
i convince myself yet find a thousand and one reason not to be convinced.
quit it. i'll untangle myself.

I like to talk to myself. Darn.

2005-10-13T19:57:00.000-07:00

There's a feeling inside & as hard as i try,
it jus won't go away.

- miss you more.

2005-10-12T14:29:00.000-07:00

am moodswinging.
swing until very high.

scold and scold.
and rant and rant.
and insult and insult.

im pure bored.

whatever.

just fuck off.

2005-10-08T22:50:00.000-07:00

nowdays everybody wants to talk like they got something to say but when they move their lips nothing comes out but a buncha gibberish and mother fuckers act like they forget abt dre

2005-10-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

... i'm exploited.
my damn classmate keeps using my pencils, eraser & my SPACE.
Gawd,i sound so primary school but he's so fucked up!
first, he messed with my calculator, then he wants to exchange!
and now, he took my watch home...KNN double fuck you
my table was so messy tt i couldnt do work n he still HAPPILY STACK HIS STUFFS ON MY TABLE.
FUCK U LADDEH.

practical test-
zouyao couldnt do the experiment during physics.. so she kept disturbing me..
whoa lao halfway she asked if we can exchange paper.
like !?!? wtf la
with her cleannnnn blank sheet leHzZ
they just love to exchange things lar i dont know why.
dint manage to finish the gradient part.. other than that was............... okay
... then chemistry experiment, alan, marc, ping wei & zouyao kept copying mine also lar..
what is this man...
but copying without disturbing is still acceptable.
went home after pract.

reached void deck, got chased by this looney lar...
cz i walk off when he said 'hi'
and he wanted me to say 'hi' back lar
what kinda asshole would do this?
really sickk lah.
aiyer !!
so wrong lehzz

2005-10-05T17:08:00.000-07:00

slept at 3a.m last night. I thought i heard someone playing organ. *shrugs.
[ it was pouring last night but the smell of the rain was close to perfect. Smell the rain & Spell my pain. ] *crude

[rain]]
i like. :))

2005-10-04T16:54:00.000-07:00

skipped sch AGAIN.
supposed to make time for linjie but she kana sore eyes this morning so we decided not to go out.
slacking & rotting now.
anw, we just cant come to agreement. i wanna go fly kite she wants to take cable car
(....)
or maybe we take cable car to sentosa fly kite ?

uhmm.. supposed to meet kaiwen last week.
but dint, and end up meeting tkk. so i think this week lorz arrange time ah
want to die lah. that joline says she's not going poly, work first.
what is this..

let the rain fall down and wake my dreams
let it wash away my sanity (after Os please)
'cause i wanna feel the thunder i wanna scream
let the rain fall down

2005-09-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

today was ok..
laughed a lot.

lesson were alright.
mel came.
and during break, we were like talking abt seducing people..
or duno what lah..
den zou yao started touchin me..
so i was like totally scared..
and tt xj wanted to learn it too..
cz she wants to "defeat" me. hah.

practical totally want to die lor.
the teacher anyhow help estimate my graph (ten much !!!)
so i got wrong.

okay. my eyes hurt. i wanna sleep soon. bye.

2005-09-26T18:15:00.000-07:00

i think too much.
too much of you that is.

it's been a long time since i felt complete*.

[ still a lil' bit of ur taste in my mouth.
it's still a lil' hard to say, what's going on ]]((:

2005-09-26T17:12:00.000-07:00

aye so delirious ar

met my happy pill today
& it made my day lar. x)

2005-09-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

met ts and tkk, pass ts his things.
ran into te se and sharlyn, chat a lil' then we left.

went to buy mh's present.
met david and andrea.

ts collected his pay while we mess with the panpac lift AGAIN.hahaha
after that they wanted to play billard,
but i'm having tame and no life so all i did was watch....
while they're playing billard, hafiz, diyana ,sapuan they all came in, joined us for awhile and went off.

played till 8ish, dinner tgt and came back.
ts entertained us with his C grade jokes throughout lar! (as usual)
tsk tsk..haha
reached home at 10ish.

shajahan told me that smth happened to iskandar.
im quite shocked..
i really dint know how to react to it..
the fallibility of life..
anw you takecare okay..

2005-09-20T17:38:00.000-07:00

sigh..
die lah die lah haven't even finish syllabus i wonder how am i gonna take exams.
urgh..
somemore i felt so threatened by xin tong
what applied food science & nutrition siaZz
aiya i feel so jaded i cant be bothered alrdy lar..

me : how to spell truly?
tkk : t-r-u-l-y
me : correct
me : how do you spell idiot?
tkk : *sounds irritated i-d-i-o-t
me : correct again ..
tkk : how do you spell stupid?
me : k-a-i k-e-a-t

HA HA HA whatever lah . ;)

2005-09-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

omg i so caught up with boa lah.
like, totally infatuated
i really like her ..

with candy coated tendency.

if this is wrong, i wanna do it right. we've got all night.... x)

2005-09-16T03:48:00.000-07:00

its 3.40am now and im still up .
IM DAMN FUCKED UP NOW LAH OKAY i'm feeling really lousy and cheebye-ish lah KNN i aint no player lorR ..
fuck dammit
DAMN DAMN DAMN ANAL..
oh yes, indeed scandalous & mind blowing.
totally blow my ego.

GAWD..
why so wrong.

2005-09-12T13:56:00.000-07:00

i'm so freaking guilty.
i mean i never use to bother bout such stuffs.
not tt it's trival but it's not my nature to do so.. but now..
i rather have an over-consumption of nicotine.

this is so wrong.

2005-08-31T15:30:00.000-07:00

aiyer..i never did any work today .
and tkk just reminded me that O's ard the corner .
but i'm doing nth about it ..
i don't know man ..
guess thats it .

&&&
i need my happy pill real bad .
it's been sooo long since we met each other.
erm.. maybe i did saw you at the zebra crossing ..
but you didn't see me can !!
anyhow it's not your fault afterall ..
. . . .
i was in the car :(

erm..
i feel so ..
empty lately .
& its not anyone's fault .